you know what i just relized? its almost christmas. and i already have more than half my presants (that would include the lame Santa Presants from my parents) under my tree, and santa hasnt even come yet. what a waste of imagination, i do tell ya!...

[x]last cigarette: i dont smoke ciggerettes....although i have, and i dont remember when that was
[x]last kiss: today :)
[x]last good cry: today :)

[x]last beverage drank: water
[x]last food consumed: uh, italian bread?

[x]last phone call: Luke

[x]last item bought: i dont fucking know! fuck off
[x]last soda drank: ?...um?...i dont fucking know...
[x]last thing written: "i dont fucking know..." wow..fucking gayy ass question
[x]last key used: the keyboard
[x]last word spoken: "okay"

[x]last ice cream eaten: chocolate chiop
[x]last webpage visited: my blog?

[x]I FEAR: im guna be flat for the rest of my life

[x]I THINK: im guna die
[x]current hair: wet hair down
[x]current thing i should be doing: itching my boob
[x]current desktop picture: a blue mountian...WHOOT
[x]current refreshment: Nada
[x]What do you most like about your body?: my eyes?
[x]And least?: my boobs
[x]Do you think you're good looking?: no actually :)
[x]Do you look like any celebrities?: no, but my mom tells me i look like Aubrey Miles?wtf?whos that?

today was horrible. my mom woke me up so friggin late, well..at least i could sleep in a little bit, but my dad had to drive me home. then in history today, i forget we had to take a quiz so i was spazing out, and like i was already stressed about the track meet that was today, and i couldnt take it. so i just like bawled my eyes out in the middle of lunch. i didnt eat, i should of, but i didnt. missi and ash were kind enough to let me sit at their table after i had my little crying moment. they decided i should go to the guidence counciler just tell her wats going on. of course..u know...joans never there...so i had to talk to another counciler. she was really nice though.

welll-today was my all acedemic day. yeah it sucked hair monkey ass, but supprisingly it went by wicked fucking fast. and i was like holy shit! no way!! this day went by too quickly to be an all acedemic day! but yeah, thats my school story.

i got to see luke today! i was reallyyy excited. i havnt seen the damn guy in like a week, and it sucked casue i missed him a lot! haha i dont know why i find this funny, but he came into lunch today with a plastic bag and a like 3 yogurts or puddings, two ramon noodle things, two little cans of soda, pills, and i believe have other stuff but it was sooo much haha. i just find it halarious sort of. i sorta got offended wen nate and luke said track isnt a sport....i mean, footballs hard, i agree, but track is like wow. you must have a lot of determination and optimisim for fucking track cause it serisouly iss fucking hard. its like any minute, you can give up. and not want to run anymore, but yet you know you have to cause your parents arent picking you up until a certain time, and Mr. Scandlen would bitch at you for not doing anything. so both ways your screwed, and both ways you have to stay on the team. its not that bad though/// i think?

hahahaha fucking science today. we dont do anything in that class. i feel so bad for ms. aw no one pays attention in her class cuase we dont understand her. shes chinese, and i think i alrede went over this before, but yeah, all i do in that class is talk to cassie or justin, or just cheat off the tests and quizes from everyone, shes staring right at us but she oesnt say a word or even do anything, yet a good grade on my report card? suprising. i was talking to bailz after class today cause i guess she gave us free time to do homework, and during thanksgiving at the thanksgiving game, i told bailey we were cousins, and she believed me hahahhaha!! oh bailey, i love you but honestly, dont be so blonde just htink about it hahahah! we dont even look any bit a like. i was born across the friggin world, how on fucking hell would we be cousins. haha thats too funny. and the thing is, she believed me for like...a whole day until i told it wasnt true. oh bailey..haha silly blonde.

Copy this into your journal and place and x by the things you have done. When your done, add one onto the bottom.

(x) been drunk
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(..) kissed a member of the same sex
(  ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been in love
(  ) been dumped
( ) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of my parent's house
( ) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
( ) ever dated someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested
(x) shoplifted
( ) celebrated new years in time square
( ) gone on a blind date  (x) lied to a friend
( )had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
() made out with a stranger
(x) been to Europe
(x) skipped school
(x) cut myself on purpose
( ) seen someone die
( ) been to Africa
( ) slapped someone I loved
( ) Driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival/fetish ball
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Thrown up in a frat
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
( ) Eaten Sushi
(x) Been snowboarding
(x) Met someone in person from the internet bens awesome!
(x) Been moshing at a concert
( ) had feelings for someone you knew only online
( ) had plastic surgery
(x) been in an abusive relationship ( emotinal)
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college
( ) tried killing yourself
(x) thought about trying to kill yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(x) miss someone right now
(x) seriously thought about killing someone else
( ) Made out in a phone booth
(x) worry so much you make yourself want to puke
( ) hated a job but stayed because you were too lazy to find another one
(x) sat in the rain for no reason